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结婚

2011-11-29T20:55:00.003+08:00

结婚，到底是两个人的事，还是两家人的事？

生不生孩子，是两个人的决定，还是两家人的决定？

以前我一直相信结婚，是两个人的事。可是，当我已婚，才发觉并不时这么一回事。这是两家人以上的事。因为你有爸爸妈妈，爸爸还有他的爸爸妈妈，妈妈也有她的爸爸妈妈，老公的爸爸妈妈，如此推类，是关系到很多很多的人。

为什么很简单的一句问候会被看得如此不堪？为什么我们为了人家的事而吵开来？是我的理性分析错了，还是我意气用事？是我把事情看得太重？还是太轻？为什么很开心的事，会变得让我很不愉快，到底是我太在乎你，还是你把我看得太微不足道。。。

就因为结了婚，把事情都看得太重了吗？

喜怒

2011-11-14T23:31:00.004+08:00

在这繁忙的城市中，竟然还有一位没有被金钱蒙蔽的好人，非常的谢谢你。

你的诚实，乐于助人让我感动。 Thank you very much, Smita!

可是同时，也让我对某家运输公司的服务态度感到失望，就应为你的失误，差点让我失去了我的购物。我讨厌你。 Aramex....

九月的今天

2011-09-19T18:50:00.002+08:00

今天，我告了病假，没想到，也没注意到说今天的training 是 PDC。有错过了，怎么搞得阿!? 累。。。

今天打了通电话去酒家，想说询问请柬的初稿是否准备好，可是负责人竟然跟我说：“有吗？你是什么时候给我的啊？" 哎哟，真不晓得该怎么办，希望不会要我从新把表格给填过吧！

秋天到了，我的好事也将近了，要加油把事情搞定了。。。

learning english proverbs

2011-04-10T14:29:00.002+08:00

说曹操，曹操就到。
speak of the devil.

那时有史以来最好的事情。
That's the best thing since sliced bread.

两颗烂苹果中比较不烂的。
The lesser of the two evils.

入镜随俗。
When in Rome, do as the Romans do. (When you are at Rome, do as they do at Rome.)

This is like chicken and eggs.

God is shinning on you.

2010 vs. 2011

2011-02-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

我两年的运程。。。2011的，让我期待秋天的来临！

忐忑 (龔琳娜)

2011-02-04T22:13:00.002+08:00

这首歌很特别，在这一次的中国出差时，无意间在电视上看到的，觉得朋友中，应该只有阿彬会喜欢，所以在这里给他介绍，介绍：-

《忐忑》是一首無歌詞的中國民歌，演唱者為龔琳娜。整首歌曲無歌詞，只有「嗯、哦、唉、喲……」。2010年10月，該首歌曲在2010年北京新春音樂會的視頻被網友傳到網上，視頻中無歌詞的咿呀演唱，和龔琳娜演唱時誇張搞笑的表情，使得它在網絡上迅速傳播，並被網友封為「神曲」。

據龔琳娜介紹，由於全首歌無歌詞，所以每次演唱都不一樣，都是即興發揮，《忐忑》這個歌名也是依她本人演唱這首歌「忽上忽下」的感受。歌曲的伴奏有笙、笛、提琴、揚琴等中國傳統樂器伴奏，運用中國戲曲的鑼鼓經作為唱詞，融合京劇中的老旦、老生、黑頭、花旦等多種音色，在極其快速的節奏中變化無窮。此曲獲得2009年度歐洲舉辦的「聆聽世界音樂」演唱大獎。

Anjulie - Boom (2009) vs. 萧亚轩-双面女神 (2010)

2011-02-03T19:17:00.003+08:00

ANJULIE - BOOM 是2009 年发行的。一年后，被萧亚轩翻唱中文版，可是我还是比较喜欢ANJULIE的版本。
萧亚轩的唱法是完全照抄原版ANJULIE的唱法。可是，并没有比ANJULIE的好。

我很少听中文歌，直到有一天在餐厅不经意听见了萧亚轩的版本，就觉得，怎么也有人会欣赏这首歌，也被翻唱了。

还是原版的好！！！

难以相信的事

2011-01-11T21:26:00.002+08:00

我不敢相信。。。

我被告知，我房间的马桶里有黄金物，里头还有一本小说与他同眠。。。

里头的小说泡“澡”，也应该有好几个小时了，已变成水肿。。。

那。。。！！！该如何是好。。。

该冲水呢？还是该把小说给捞起来？我的他还很幽默的给我不同的状况，让我哭笑不得。。。还问我，要不要救小说。。。小说阿小说。。。应该救不了了吧！

因为不是我发现的，我在听，在笑，很难想象说，如果是我发现的，我应该没办法笑，还会尖叫，发脾气吧！

Time off

2010-08-28T16:10:00.002+08:00

I desperately need some quality time off, an isolated break from work to get myself refresh and stay cool and energetic at work!

Work schedule is so packed up, job after job. I need some room for fresh air.

K.K

2010-07-08T13:45:00.002+08:00

为什么

2010-05-07T20:05:00.002+08:00

工作是为了什么？

为了钱？
为了前途？
为以后的生活？
为了自己？
为了父母？
到底为了谁？
为了什么？

我已经不知道了。。。
意识慢慢的模糊，
让我不知道了方向。。。
为什么要坚持。。！

China work trip

2010-04-18T19:59:00.002+08:00

Just to show off a bit, this is the hotel room I stay at in the last night of my china trip, which i enjoy the room for 4 hours only. >.< coz working OT till very late at the night before we go back.

Like the tea tray a lot. Wish to get 1 like this for my dad.

Busy working schedules

2010-04-18T19:26:00.003+08:00

How long has it been since the last post of mine in this blog...??? Is has been longer than i could recall until i looked at the previous post.

My work is taking too much of my time, not that i am too devoted to my work, but it required high commitment to learn new stuffs, to get things completed in time etc. And time is the factor for all these especially at peak season.

I am away from home alsmot a month by now, been to china for 2 weeks, now ipoh for 2 weeks, which are tedious and exhousting. I miss home, i miss my boyfriend. My workmates were teasing me that i am not only home sick, but also 'boyfriend sick'. haha...!! in fact, it is so true.

After the proposal, i haven't been able to share my time with him, being together for a good movie, or dinner. I am always occupied by my job. I feel sorry for him, but also thankful that he has been so nice and considerate.

I was making jokes with him saying that, i am too busy for marriage, how?... I wanted to get married, to get pampered by him. I am happy that i have meet him again after departed from high school. But this not gonna happen so soon, may be next year or the year after next.

Hopefully things get turn out better soon after i pick up more techniques and skills at work.

Feedback

2009-12-11T21:20:00.004+08:00

我从来不觉得我自己说话有什么问题，有话直说，不会转弯抹角，很好。但是，现在，这成为了我的致命伤。

工作上，有人觉得我和他们说话没大没小，不尊敬他们。可实，我从来没有不尊敬任何人，我也很清楚了解，不管他们的职位是什么，只要比我先进公司的，都是我的senior. 所以，我从来不曾冒犯任何人，可是，我的经理今天和我说了，他们给我的feedback 就是，工作上不错，可是，就是不尊敬他们，觉得我很好胜，没礼貌。我听了之后，只觉得很委屈。

我知道我自己的强项并不在于会计，很幸运的考试过关了，可是工作时，并不能每次靠运气完成的。而且，终有一天，我自己必须能够独立去完成一个工作，而不用依赖别人。可是，不同的senior, 有不同的工作方式，对个案，有不同的理解，所以当他们解说时就因个案叙述，但我并不知道，以为每个案子都如此按照之前的解说方式处理，可是，往往都大有不同。我有异议，发问，提出之前我所了解的处理方式，询问为什么不同时，让他人觉得我在责问，而不是询问。可能发问时，用词不当，语气不对，或者是真的我的表达能力很差，才会让大家都误会我。我并没有要逾矩，去表现些什么，我只是觉得很混乱，为什么每个人说得都不一样，到底要听谁的? 怎样做才是对的？询问时，又被觉得我是在挑战他们，我觉得很无奈，也很委屈。

原本的我是不知道的自己有问题的，直到有一天，我去询问(可能我应该用'讨教'会比较恰当吧?) 我的经理时，他回答我的语气包含不愉快，我才惊觉，他并不了解我的问题，而做出了回应。我转头向别人陈述事发经过，再发问同样的问题，用不同的字眼，才得到我想要的答案。那时，我才知道，原来大家都不了解我的问题，就做出了回应。

我发觉后，就开始慢慢在改变我发问的方式，可是，可能还是不够好吧！让大家还是我觉得我很骄傲，可是我并没有。。。。为什么人与人之间的沟通那么难？为什么有话不能只说？我也问了好多次，为什么有些人对我不理不睬，可是没有人愿意告诉我。让我觉得很难过，大家要把我排斥在外，我也不勉强，希望能够把自己工作做好就算了。

我很高兴我的坚持，让我得到了答案。我很感谢我的经理告诉了我原因，让我有机会进步改善我自己的缺点。我并没有对任何人有偏见，如果他人对我偏见依旧，我不会因此而改变我自己，只希望能够改善我的表达能力，不让他人再误会我就好了。

加油吧！

mum's and my birthday treat

2009-10-29T19:12:00.003+08:00

我的生日礼拜

2009-10-24T20:05:00.003+08:00

姐姐在cyberjaya 工作的最后一星期，也是他在我家住的最后一个星期，之后，他就必须回他的小窝睡了。我想，我应该会不习惯。毕竟习惯了他在我家的出没。

上个星期的周末，有人很放肆，打电脑打到凌晨5点才睡，结果呢！就开始有生病的现象出现了，喉咙痛，伤风。弟弟也是如此，爸爸就说买凉茶给弟弟，我顺手也给他买了，而且是加药粉的，苦不甚严，他喝得皱眉头，却不敢吭声，还被我笑，好可怜的样子，但也很好笑，谁叫他那么爱玩，把自己给累坏了，是该吃点苦头的。妈妈也笑他，说他很可怜，被女朋友欺负。。。哇哇。。。冤枉啊！我没有。。。

回到家里，弟弟也一样，凉茶加药粉，喝得他都快吐了。爸爸还吩咐买两包给弟弟，弟弟喝不完，还说跟他分享。哈哈。。弟弟跟他变得像哥儿们，竟然会有福同享，有难同当，他却说，是同病相怜。不管怎么样的说法，很高兴他和我第能够合得来。

然后，我的生日。他为了我，还特别早走，来接我回家。事前也没跟我说一下，让我很感动他的体贴。在回家前，还回他家去拿了吉他。我的生日礼物就是他弹着吉他，唱歌给我听。虽然说，他弹得不是很熟练，但是还是很喜欢。很可惜，当晚我的情况不佳，皮肤痕痒又发作，只好匆匆结束了他的演奏，然后睡觉去了。（就这样子把他给打发掉了, 什么浪漫情节都省略掉了, 有点可惜。）

在一起后的第一次合照。。。

weekly flashback

2009-10-16T20:27:00.004+08:00

I feel so tired this month so far, because i have not been at home for the past 2 weekends. It means i didn't have enough sleep, i am desperately hunger for sleep. Saturday is my sleeping day, and cleaning day, i have missed them 2 times in this month.

The week before last, i have a trip to Melaka to meet the parents. It was totally new experience to me. I was nervous for some time being, but then it went and ended well, i guess....!!! So alright, come to the following week, it was the company group trip to ipoh. I was so so tired too. Ipoh is my hometown, i feel bored to travel, treating it as trourism spot, especially in the shopping complex. I know the shops inside out, because i was tired, i didn't have any desire or drive to shop not even window shopping.

But overall ended ok because i know more places to eat good food, and discover new places to go that i can bring someone with me to visit again.

This week, workwise been ok for the 1st few days, but latter towards weekend, i have been attending a 2 days seminar at Times Sqaure. Due to insifficient of sleep and rest, i found it so hard to concentrate in it, and feel so cold in the seminar room.

Meanwhile, I feel sorry for him being not be able to sleep at night too partly due to my sister. He has already done so much for me, but i can't even guarantee the basic, providing him with a comfy environment to rest. Pity him. :S

This week, finally, i can have my own sweet time to sleep and do some cleaning of myself and room. Apart from the above mentioned, i have heard about some sad news from friends around me.

I have him experiencing family member leaving him, so does my friend whom i just met is losing her love ones too. I do feel sorry for them and here giving my deepest condolence to them, hope they will recover and do well, and wishing life treat them good.

气炸了

2009-10-13T21:07:00.002+08:00

快被我弟弟给气炸了。真的有够他的讨人厌。

开玩笑也有个限度，他就很过分的过了那条线，姐姐也很厉害，还在那里挑起我的怒气，让我气到不行，在无处发泄之际，就可怜了他，因为我都不理他。没那个心情，可是很对不起，因为我还没气完，等我气消了，我会赔罪的。

啊！！！！！！真的他妈的很生气。。。。。。。笨蛋弟弟。。。。

怡保之旅

2009-10-11T23:02:00.005+08:00

这次的怡保之旅，让我发觉到，原来我对我的家乡，是那么的不熟悉，让我觉得有点惭愧。

我的组员里有几位怡保人，是他们让我尝到了我没吃过的怡保小食，没到过怡保好玩的小地方。看到了，我的脑海里叮咛自己，要记得这些地方，认得这些路，想的，就是想带他来。让我好想好想他。

因为家里有事，他不得不回家，还日以继夜的守在家里帮忙，还记得给我电话，关心我，让我觉得心疼。所以，当看到好看，好玩，好吃的，都会想到他，希望能够带他来。

除此之外，就是沿途不停的吃，上车下车，吃。。。！吃得太多。。。饱了口福，就辛苦了胃。

看到了开了花的叉烧包，就想起了他的妹妹得叼嘴，只爱吃开了花的叉烧包，她应该会很喜欢。下次可以打包给他。但是他就说，可以不用了，因为她妹夫也可以带他妹妹去吃，不用他。。。。哈哈。。我都忘了他妹夫的家乡和我的是邻居。

特别的周末

2009-10-04T19:44:00.003+08:00

为什么这个周末很特别呢？因为，我去了马六甲一趟，去meet the parents，算是不错。发觉到，他的家庭和我得蛮像的，很好的感觉。可是呢，我就没做好自己，很懒，爱赖床，结果呢。。。嗯。。。弄到很迟，给了人家一个不太好的感觉吧！。。。

他的妈妈和妹妹的感觉都很好。。。很可爱。。，相处得还愉快。。。爸爸呢。。。！哇噻。。。好酷。。。喜怒哀乐都没表现在脸上的。。。好。。。深奥。。。（我想不到其他的形容词）的一个人。。。妹夫呢。。。自大沙文主义的大男人。。。不敢领教。

我和他们出去时，刚好就凑成了3 pairs. 好好玩的感觉。。

这一趟，去得匆匆忙忙，走也走的匆匆忙忙。。。除了累一点外，就是有人很高兴，而我也终于实现的我的承诺。反正还有很多机会可以慢慢联络联络感情。。：）

周六这一天其实是一个很特别的日子, 对我的家而言, 除了它是中秋节之外, 它还是我爸妈的结婚纪念日。还没决定去马六甲之前，就询问了家里的两位主人家，到底有没有什么特别安排，得到的结果是没有。很好！那就去马六甲咯。。。可是当我跟他们说时，爸爸就跟我耍赖，说要带妈妈去吃饭。。。问我是不是要男朋友，不要妈了？觉得好委屈哦！！！让我好为难。。在询问妈妈后。。。妈妈就说随我。不要紧的，当我出发，给爸爸打电话时，爸爸还以为我骗他，不相信我真的走，跟他说是妈妈放行的，还不高兴。结果还得安抚爸爸说，我回来的周天会带他和妈去吃饭，才放行，呜呜。。。。！！！

到了马六甲的那一天，有人没有给饭我吃。。。让我饿肚子。。。好可怜啊。。。。！！！到了他爸回来，我们才全部一起出去吃。。。那时已是晚上9 点了。。。。前面有说到他爸很酷，可是非常好客，叫了好多菜，我要很努力的才能够把它们消灭。。。都不知道该笑还是哭了。。。

问题

2009-09-23T22:47:00.003+08:00

当一个人告诉你，你做得不好时，你会怀疑自己吗?

我呢，会看那人是谁，再决定要不要去相信他的话，得看看他在我心目中的份量都地有多重而定论。

我想，每个人都面对过这问题，可是，有人找的确实的答案吗？我觉得。。不太可能，毕竟这很抽象，也很看当时会话的感觉和气氛所造成的压迫感，有没有能够让你去觉得这是一个问题呢！

我妈常说，如果一个人说你的不是，有可能是他的问题，也有可能是你的。可是，多过两个人给你同样的评语时, 问题是出自你身上的几率就相对的提高了。

可是在感情方面，就只有你和他两个人，要怎么找到问题的答案呢？

4 天周末假期

2009-09-21T00:19:00.003+08:00

已过了两天的周末，过得怎样？好吗？

不是很好！因为很痒。。。别想歪了。。。我是真的很痒，因为皮肤敏感发作，痒得我很累。。。很痛。。。因为，皮肤都被我抓伤了，尤其是在洗澡时，真是。。。难以形容的痛和痒。。。

我一天的行程就是洗澡，洗澡再洗澡。我现在很丑，都不太敢出去见人，因为抓伤的伤痕延伸到手臂和小腿，必须穿长衣长裤去遮丑。

然后呢，有人回家乡了。没了他的出没，好像很自由，可是也很无聊，所以大半的时间都不是很清醒地，精神不济，让自己可以浑浑噩噩的过日子。好像也很不错。。。我猜，当他看到了这篇稿，应该不会很高兴，因为表现得我太懒惰了。。。他还笑说，当他回来找我时，我应该在家生灰尘了，带我出去之前，还得替我清理我的蜘蛛网。。。！！！咳。。。不管了。。。让我懒多几天。。不多，就多一天，毕竟工作上还有些得完成的。无奈！

在意的话语

2009-09-12T23:41:00.002+08:00

有一些话，是不能说的！就算是开玩笑也不能，因为你会不晓得，听的人到底会有多在意那一番话。

所以，在还没把话说去前，应该三思，免得搞得尴尬。同样的，听的人，也不用太在意他人的言语，毕竟，最后烦恼的是自己。

我都是用这一番话，反复的提醒自己，别再轻易的受别人言语影响。

可是，当越在乎一个人的时候，自然而然的，你就会在乎他说的话，同样的喜怒哀乐都牵影着你的情绪。要如何掌握其中技巧，就是们很深奥的学问了。我啊。。。在什么时候才能拥有这深度，量度呢！

090909 是个怎样的日子

2009-09-09T22:14:00.002+08:00

今天一如往常没什么特别，就是星期三嘛！
它的特别在于它的意义。有很多人选择在今天做新人，也有很多人在今天告白或求婚的。我呢，在今天，第一次送礼物给别人的妈妈祝贺她生日快乐，可是糊涂得我，连卡片都忘了写，还得要求寿星的儿子给我去买花，才能够把礼物完整的呈现给人。好不负责任似的。。。：S

有人担心，本小姐没做好准备，怕给我压力，连希望我打电话给他妈说说话也不敢把要求提出来，但是，他有提过嘛！我做到的，一定会做的。

很谢谢有人的体谅，我相信他以为我还没准备好吧！没关系，现在跟他说，他都能做到了，为什么我做不到呢？或是他还没准备好让我出场呢？那得听听“有人”的解答咯！

同样的一天，我好像也伤了朋友的心。我一直觉得他当我是朋友，并不是特别的那一种，被他念说我忘了他，我也没做多想象，就说没有，只是因为忙，没空找他，约他。他也不高兴了。我也算了，毕竟我真的连睡觉的时间都不够，（因为本人非常会睡，可以睡上很久）怎么可能还找他出来溜达呢！

当他约我10 月25 号出来时，我还以为他要和我过生日，那晓得他竟然说是他哥哥当天结婚，想找我一起出席，当下我才了。还说我没回他话是因为跟男朋友在说话，还说我，有了男朋友也没跟他说，然后叫我好好照顾自己，就离线了，还叫我把他约我的话给忘了。。。

我简直无言以对。。。傻了。。。！！！这是什么跟什么。。。？？？

我爸好帅

2009-09-08T21:26:00.003+08:00

在英国买回来的衬衫，原意是要给弟弟的，可惜弟弟不争气，变胖了，所以，所有的衣都归爸爸所有。其中里头有一两件是slim fit 的，第一次看爸爸穿，哇！我爸爸好帅气，完全不输给时下年轻小伙子。如果我和这样的爸爸出去，大家一定误认为他是我男朋友，好讨厌。因他是我爸爸，年纪比我大，可是我爸很帅，让我很骄傲。。。。茅盾阿！

称赞爸爸很帅气时，他的嘴角也忍不住往上翘，很好恋的。妈妈就说，有这样子的爸爸，就有这样子的女儿。我妈在说我们俩，太像了。都是自恋的人。。嘻嘻。。。谁叫我像爸爸那样好看。。。哇哈哈！！！

没力。。。

2009-09-03T19:20:00.002+08:00

今天不知道怎么搞的，早上去上班，没带电话和钱包。出门前，爸爸和妈妈都再三叮咛，提醒我记得带电话，我也回话说，我拿了，带了。因为昨天我也没带电话。

在上班时，要用到电话才发觉自己是没带的。好，没带电话，没什么大不了嘛！可是，到了中午，要出去吃午餐的当儿，竟然发觉钱包没在包包里面，到处都翻了一遍，肯定了，我是没带钱包的，然后打电话跟妈妈确定，钱包是否给遗留在家里。结果是没错的。

之前打电话给妈妈确认电话的去向时，已被妈妈骂到臭头了。而我还再打电话回家说，我没带钱包。。。。

还好有一位同事欠我钱，就跟他取回，才有吃饭钱，不然还得跟他们借。

工作上，以为今天能做完，才发现其实问题一箩箩。。。把我搞得很累。下班时间一到，我就立刻离开，要回家休息，放松自己。

到家后，晚餐还没准备好，就拿了颗苹果充饥，结果因为忙着看电脑，而没注意自己把什么放了进嘴巴，直到吞了下肚子，才发觉味道怪怪的，一看，发现苹果的肉实已腐败，所以才会尝到苦的味道。

哇。。。今天怎么搞的。。。！！！好没力啊。。。。

同事坏车记

2009-09-01T23:53:00.002+08:00

今天要去tropicana 工作，乘坐了同事的车到达目的地，哪知道，要回家时，她的车竟然罢工，闹脾气，把我的同事给吓坏了，可紧张呢！赶紧搬救兵，她的哥哥。

打了电话后，还怕被哥哥念。我也打了电话给朋友，跟他说了，我同事的车子故障，会耽误约定的时间，因为他答应要载我回家，同事会载我回公司，我们在公司见面。

我朋友听了后，就说，倒不如直接来找我，还比较好一些，毕竟也很晚了，不用再麻烦我同事载我回公司，毕竟我朋友在等，我在等，同事也在等，等救兵。大家都在等。

在等人之余，我们聊天，聊了很多，对感情的看法，小时趣事，家人的关心。不错，蛮好的感觉，好像交到了一个新朋友。不再只是工作上的事情和交集。

结果，她的救兵和我的同一时间到达。哈哈。。。好巧！！！

然后，她哥哥就给他上了一课！可是，我觉得她好像没在听，因为她在笑我。。。弄我。。。！！坏人! :S

你

2009-08-29T01:13:00.004+08:00

我想说，身边每一个不同的人，
在不同的时候，对我有着不一样的影响。

理念，思想的不同，也会有一致的时候，
齿唇相近，也有咬破唇的一天。

我很想跟大家分享，和身边的人生活，过得很自然，
没有压力，是最快乐的。

时而相敬如宾，时而嬉戏反目，都是必然，那才是生活情趣。

不一定要有惊险刺激，绵绵情意，也能细水长流。
比我想象中的一切还有美好。

谢谢你的耐性，谢谢你的相伴。我相信有你的作伴，不会无聊。

today...so tired

2009-08-26T20:44:00.003+08:00

Gosh, last night i have spent almost my whole night unpacking, arranging, and then setting up with my desktop and sound system in my room. I am so excited having my owns again.

I was chatting, enjoy my musics, waiting for my hair to dry (coz lazy to blow dry) and being hungry till 12.30am. Then, waiting for my brother to get me some food. After everything i ended going to sleep at 1am....it has been really long time never sleep late since i started working as an auditor.

Today, my sleepy mood keep calling me. I was so wasted last night, i can hardly be awake in 100% to perform my job. But i am really glad that i manage to keep myself going by disturbing others. I am being too naughty, stop others from concentrating on their work, but to entertaint me so that i am more alert after the chat :P this gonna happen again because when i got the 2 boxes, i will have to unloaded them too. ...which...is....don't know when!

delivery, after a long wait

2009-08-25T23:46:00.004+08:00

Waited for almost 3 months, my delivery is finally here.

I came back to Malaysia on the 2nd sunday of May, till now, it has been 3 months 1 week, I packed my bags and there i left UK, without bringing much of my belongings, left them back in UK and make my friends to do all the packing for me.

I must say thank you to them who help me out in this, but then, my friends, i wrote my full address on 1 of the boxes, but you guys didn't write the full address on it, that's why they been having problem delivering them to me.

my full add is 2, JLN SG BESI INDAH 3/3. you guys miss out 3/3... :S

anyway still, thank you peeps!

i got them today, but only 5 boxes out of 7. The remaining 2 were still on their way home to me... i miss them so much, please do come back to me...!! coz i have my speakers in it. pls pls remember to find your way home...!!!

累了，就把心事放下來

2009-08-23T11:26:00.002+08:00

A very interesting lesson : -

最近認識一位美國籍的出家師父，是個很有趣的事情。
特別是他叫我舉起蕃茄汁跟他說話的經驗。

我們約在新竹的一家茶館用英文談論著心經，
師父用英文跟我解釋因果、輪迴這些事情，這都還不稀奇。

有趣的事情在後頭呢！
師父一聽完我跟他提到的個人煩惱的時候，
他索性要我左手提起他剛買的三罐番茄汁，一邊提著，一邊跟他說話。
可想而知，我左手感覺到疲勞的程度，跟時間成了正比。
也懊惱著為何師父要我一邊提著三罐蕃茄汁，一邊跟他說話。
受不了這樣的酸楚，我自行把左手放下，
卻聽到師父跟我說：「 Hold it up, and keep talking to me. 」

聽到這樣的話，心理不免起了疑心，
我手提的那麼酸，為何不讓我放下手上的重物，輕鬆地與他對談？

約莫過了15分鐘，我的左手實在承受不住了，
才聽見師父跟我說：「Now you can put it down.」。

看著我狐疑的臉，師父居然笑了出來。

「你不喜歡提著重物跟我說話，
為何你卻喜歡帶著煩惱來跟我說話，過著你的生活呢？

手酸了，放下就好，對待煩惱，不也是這樣？
或是這些煩惱就像是那些番茄汁一樣，
是你自己用手把它們給舉起來的呢？」

有趣的經驗，對吧？
最近我開始這樣的練習，
一手舉起有重量的東西，一邊想著事情。
手酸了，自然會放下手上的東西，
看看有一天，我會不會也學到，心累了，就把心事給放下來。
我們能很容易的放下有形的重物，
卻很難放下無形的重擔。

執著的人生會讓自己承擔莫需有的重擔。
所以學習放下執著也就在學習人生自在。

mutual understanding

2009-08-22T21:19:00.008+08:00

What is crucial to keep a good relationship with others, whether he/she is your family members, friends, work mates, relatives or partner?

Mutual understanding. But how does this derive from us and get to this stage in our lives.

There's been many out there having problems, that's the reason of increased divorce cases in the century. I am always glad to know myself better being i am a talker, very talkative person, wants to share everything with everyone who is close to me, so that they know how am i doing, getting on lately, to keep relationship going. Also, to be a good listener is important, being please, i do have the patient for that. But not everyone likes me, or have the similar thought as me.

To come to mutual understand between us, is best to communicate. Communication skill is an art, an art which is hard to master of. Although i said that i am a talker, but can't really tell that I am a good communicator, i am still lack of it to communicate with every single people around me, get to know them better via talking, and listening.

I've been feeling heartache today because of a couple that i have known for years been into a querrel, and the wife got so disappointed and sad, complaining the husband never tells her anything. They have been married for years, and do have kids, but the man still being a very self-centered person, thinks that she should know, but how would she knows if you being her man never talks about it, or tell her about it. She been claiming that she is being worse than a maid, at least, if the man has a maid, he would have told the maid when is he leaving home to travel out or whatsoever, so that the maid will take care of the house. But this man, always been taking things for granted, expected the wife to know and to understand the man being out to work hard for the family, for the future living, and he being tired after coming back from work.

I think this is very typical china man perspective about himself as for the wife, which i don't agree with it at all. I do appreciate people talks to me, and listen to me, showing a good care of them to me, which is true.

SO, Friends, think about it today, have you spoken to your family members today, have your spoken to your partner about what do to for the coming long weekend yet? Each person is an individual body, entity, no one is bound to be responsible for another even for parents or married couples, they do because they cares, their love, please say thank you everytime anyone have give you a hand, do you any favour, even say thanks to the cleaner in your office for doing a good job keep the office clean.

Since that, you must have say thanks to you parents, your wife, preparing a good meal for you, being at your side when you needed them. A simple sentence can keep the relationship going, also keep the disputes away.

I have been doing it to keep my family informed so that they are aware, not worried for me, not absolutely, at least keep it to the minimal, and they are happy, and so do I.

都是loud speaker 的错

2009-08-22T20:56:00.004+08:00

就因为有人喜欢在驾车使用广播器，不喜欢用蓝牙或听筒，结果搞得旁人很尴尬。上一次，是别人打电话给他，而当时车子里就只有我和他，所以我就很安静的不打扰，但是他的朋友跟他说的事，我都听得一清二楚，觉得啊。。好像很不道德，偷听别人的对话。

可是这一次换我打给他，没想到他也是在驾车，同样的用了广播器，而我刚好就顽皮，用电话打视讯给他，我觉得好玩，因为第一次用手机视频聊天，所以我还没说什么就一直在笑，但是当他跟我说他在驾车时，我就觉得可惜，没办法，他要驾车嘛！可是过后，那么的好，他竟然跟我说他的家人都在车上，就觉得脸红，因为尴尬，毕竟刚刚我像白痴似的在笑。。。他家的人一定觉得我怎么那么奇怪，都不说话，就在笑而已。。。。因为我在等他那里接通视频，要看他的表情，哪知。。。会变成那样的。。。 :S 郁闷啊！。。。

我家想养小狗

2009-08-19T21:14:00.005+08:00

今天，我的同事跟我说，他的朋友有心想要送小狗给人，问了我有没有兴趣。。。我听了可高兴，两只小狗都很可爱，可是我没办养两只，只能选其一。回到家后，给弟弟看了照片，弟弟就说，要先看看狗儿聪明吗？健不健康，才作决定。大家也一起看看，那一只狗儿比较可爱？你会选那一只？还没看到它们之前，我一直都想要找一只像黑色的那一类的狗儿，但是看到了褐色的那一只也很可爱，就被动摇了。黑色还是褐色？？

写部落格

2009-08-19T21:07:00.003+08:00

是我太笨，还是怎么了？为什么朋友中那么多人写部落格，他们都有办法上传他们自己要分享的事，照片，影片，音乐还是什么的。为什么我研究了那么就还是一无所获呢？

我最厉害的，就是上传照片而已，其他的，一概没办法，所以我的部落格常常看到的就只有密密麻麻的文字。看看那位高人看了我的部落格后，可怜我，有心要教我这笨小孩。。。呜呜。。。！！！

overwhelming

2009-08-16T22:24:00.003+08:00

Never been such a day for me. What do you do when feelings overwhelming? follow whatever it says to you, or ignore it?

May be i am just too free or i have not been enough to sleep or whatever reason i am trying to give myself which i don't know or sure about, having such an overwhelm feelings has never happen to me before. I have always been good in managing my emotion, but yesterday, today, i am losing the control.

The feeling take charge of everything inside my mind, which is scary. And i have no idea how long this feelings gonna last... i am really confused myself. . . . .

Kota Bahru 之旅

2009-08-15T09:06:00.005+08:00

两天前，从kota bahru 回来，觉得还不错。我是去工作，在工作之余，当地client 的员工可是非常好客，带我去吃当地美食，是非常棒的事。短短两天，我都尝过了哥市的茗肴，可惜的是，因为是去工作，没带相机，也没时间好好的拍照留念，唯有上网看看那一位朋友，有同样的经验留笔写写他们的感想。很高兴我找到了。

在文章中提到的nasi dagang 和泰式料理我都有尝到，非常得不错。最得我心的是，当地民情相当好客，友善，我很喜欢，我觉得这这是都市人最缺乏的。

到这同好的部落个看看吧！你就会知道我当时的所看到的：

http://drummer94.blog.friendster.com/2009/04/%E9%98%BF%E8%B3%A2%E5%92%8Cnasi-dagang/

http://blog.axian788.com/?p=1172#comment-5270

还有一个遗憾就是，去了两天，当地的著名nasi ulam 都没开店，还我没口福。可惜可惜。。。！！！

career fair

2009-08-12T21:11:00.005+08:00

Hitz fm cruisers

2009-07-30T08:58:00.009+08:00

Hey, it was really amazing that Hitz fm cruiserz have came to Seri Kembangan area to giveaways free stuffs to the public.

Two days ago, when i was listening to the radio, heard that the cruisers were in Damansara area, yesterday they were at Kelana, i was thinking, their HQ is at Bukit Jalil, why are they always heading to so far far away, not coming to me?? And they probably heard me, and they came to me....haha..!!! I am so happy.

And now, i could understand why they seldom come to this area, it was so quiet at our area, not much of audiences came by for the fun. Still, it was really good atmosphere, Camela was playing games with us, and the rest. Not sure is his name Jason, he gave me tips to the game...hehe and i won myself a prize...great fun.

There was a little catch where we were playing games to eliminate people to get a winner to the t-shirt and i lost half way, i was gutted, when they ended the game, the cruisers announced to us, everyone get a free t-shirt. I was like WoW! i still win..!!! hehe.... so my dad, my sis and I each got a t-shirt, mine is XS size...can u imagine i can fit that..??!! will see!

Here are the pictures of what i've got from hitz fm :-

Hitz fm u will always have my support!!! Cheers.

random mood

2009-07-25T00:07:00.002+08:00

I've been in a funny mood today, i was feeling alright when i left my work place, i feel irritate when i was driving, i feel angry when i reach home. After that, i feel dull. Then very blue, sleepy.

Go to sleep for 30 mins, then have to go to airport to pick up my parents, on my way back, i was happy for a very short while, then is gone. I've become very dull again. Like now, i am feeling very boring and just wanna sleep. What's is going on with me today???

Feel very strange!

Signs - short movie

2009-07-22T21:46:00.002+08:00

A short film recommended by my friend and i would like to share it with everyone. meaningful and touching, i do enjoy watching it, hope you like it too!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uy0HNWto0UY

都是榴莲惹的祸！

2009-07-20T21:37:00.003+08:00

回想一下，我好像很久很久没生病过了。除了，不明原因的骨裂之外，我都是健康宝宝一名。最常的身体不适，都是因为睡眠不足所引起的, 都是小事。

这一次的肠胃不适，竟然是因为 - 榴莲。

都是榴莲的不好，要不是它，我不会没办法吃东西，不会到有的看，没得吃，这是非常可怜的。。。

就因为上个星期回怡保时，舅母一直吹说榴莲有多好吃，而且因为我喜欢吃，特别买给我吃的，我不会硬吃那么多，把自己给撑坏了的。

现在还得花40 快去看医生，真是赔了夫人，折了兵； " 人" 财两失。

1st time of embarrassment

2009-06-22T14:03:00.002+08:00

Today, been very "fish". It is 1st time in my life, fell down when i am wearing high heels and skirt on the street.

Worse is, there are a lot of passerby when i fell. So not good!!!

This happened when i was on my way back after lunch with my classmate. The good thing is, no injury and my skirt is still in place. haha....!!! ain't the end of the world yet...!!!

心情低落

2009-06-12T22:17:00.004+08:00

外面下着倾盆大雨，我的内心也落寞！

为什么我总觉得委屈？是因为我心胸狭窄？还是我太小气？还是又有更多更多不应在存有的情绪在呢？？

为什么我觉得痛心时，总是孤单一个人过着？没有人可以在我旁边让我哭诉。。。现在回家了，竟然可以觉得比在国外还惨？为什么会这样的！

是我做错了吗？还是我的要求很过分？要求公平的对待是很过分吗？为什么这么简单的事可以那么难？

有着独立的个性，能干的性格就可撑着这一切一切吗？有没有人想过，我也会有累的一天，家人，朋友，都不缺，为什么他们却可以那么自私的把一切让我独自一个人去承受呢？

丹的部落格

2009-05-19T17:20:00.002+08:00

只是，这样的豪放终于在门口和你们相拥道别时褪色，红了眼眶，胸口憋闷起来，完美的是，我们戛然而止，各自走上自己的回家路。最后在车站送完JOANNA的时候，我微微的对玉佩说，自己感觉很难受，她依旧用她那句没有任何说服力的话应我“那你能怎样？！”，切断细腻，开始大条！

在火车上我们头靠头的享用一个耳机，里面是张震岳的“思念是一种病”，病，意味着身体的一种偶然状态，即使病在其中，也有会康复的那天吧！随后的回家路上，我和玉佩二重奏的大音量合声“柠檬树，鸭子”，回家拍了几张精心胆颤的老鼠合照，病，在玉佩这样一位“大条”榜样的照耀下，退去到身体的阴暗角落。

看到了他的部落格，就会想到当初的那种“革命情感”，两个女子疯疯癫癫的在街上高歌，不理会路人的眼光，活得很自我。就是要这样！丹，你必须学会这一点！要快哦！

我很感动也很高兴，我能够给与他那么大的感动与鼓励，咱们一起加油吧！

P& Co interview session

2009-05-19T17:01:00.003+08:00

Trying to recall myself the interview session i had when i was in the UK, the last and final interview i could ever had with a UK based company.

P&Co is a accountancy firm who service the oriental market in the UK, the company was looking for someone who is proficiency in Mandarin and Cantonese as well as English speaking candidate to join the company. I was pretty lucky i guess, i manage to pass thru the 2 sessions of interview. However, i hasn't been successful in meeting the test requirement set by the company.

I was given some tests during the second interview session. There were logical thinking test, mathematical test and some english vocab test. To me, they were all IQ tests, among all the Qs i don't see the logical part of it, coz any1 of the answer could be the answer.

Example:

AG?S

what could the ? be?

what would have in mind for this Qs? I don't know the answer, but from my point of view, my guess, the asnwer should be M! who knows, there are some other geometrical diagram Qs too. I was ended with anger of doing it, so i left empty of 7-8 Qs. From the moment i walked out from the office, i knew, i won't get this job. Anyway, i was prepared for it! So no fuss.

It was an incredible experience where i have to answer these IQ tests to get a job! althought i've been given a very positive feedback from the face-to-face interview session.

Jiannan Li to me show details 6 May

Reply

Follow up message

Dear Ms Choi,

Thank you very much for attending the interview yesterday and it was a pleasure meeting you.

As promised, I have marked your tests and spoken to the partners of the firm. Unfortunately, on this occasion your application has not been successful. My colleagues have commented that you strength are good communication skills, language skills, maturity, flexibility and positive attitude etc. You have also had some work experience though not so much accounting and finance related. However, your tests scores did not meet our requirement.

I have attached a copy of the formal letter which has been posted out by 1st Class today. Please let me know if you require further information.

I wish you all the best in your job search and future career.

Kind regards,

Jiannan Li

未正式上班前的感想

2009-05-19T15:12:00.006+08:00

回来找工作，但是到目前为止，只有两家公司回复我的求职信，叫我去面试。两家公司对我都很有兴趣，可能他们很缺人吧？

第一家，是一间比较小型的会计公司，是老板直接面试我的。他是那种古板的老人家，当他听见我说，我在英国酒吧打工时，给了我那些很谑的表情，看了让我觉得气愤。所以就没打算去那里上班！

第二家，是国内排行10大的公司，在蒙古还有子公司，当mandakh知道后，她二话不说的叫我去那里上班。哈哈。。。，我猜，他在想，以后我们可能有机会成为同事吧！

因为这两家公司都提供一样的薪水给我，我还一直希望有第3家公司给我面试，结果等了一个星期，都没回应，就答应了第二家公司。

答应后，应该就在六月1号上班。还好，有点时间休息，不然好累啊！也给自己一些时间去购物，毕竟我很少正式的上班服。在会计楼上班就是麻烦在不能够随性穿着，必须穿得很正式。到目前为止，我只买了两双鞋子。

找工作篇

2009-05-13T21:24:00.002+08:00

好郁闷啊！

回来马来西亚后，有两家公司的面试，他们的 size 差别好大, 可是呢，能够 offer 我的薪水竟然是一样的 range! 真让人不敢相信，让我非常郁闷，一家是 small size 的 Sdn. Bhd. 另一是 medium to large size 的公司，上班时间是同样的，从星期一到星期五， 8。30am 到 5。30pm，没有OT claim, but expected to work OT, 那你会选哪一家？

大公司还有六个月的试用期，小型的就没有。啊。。。。。。！！！！

爱你在心口难开

2009-05-11T06:19:00.002+08:00

回到家后，就开始翻东西，要收拾，发现了以前的一些句子，还蛮怀念的。

题：

一撇三点宝盖友
有人无事便靠尔
存不住子存住土
休息够了各自走
问了之后就拆门
考试出题不懂答
井头不见两支木。

答：

爱你在心口难开

现在看，就得有点土，老气，可是以前觉得怎么那么有学问呢！！！！

足球运坛历史性时刻

2009-05-04T00:29:00.002+08:00

今天，好巧好巧得让我见证了非常历史性的一刻。咱们Wolverhampton Wonderers 在历经五十年后的第一场冠军赛，好感动啊！

五十年了，咱们地方的足球队都没打过胜仗，终于在这一天，夺下了胜利，普天共庆，高兴得不得了。因为球场人数限制，地方当局还在west park做了现场转播，设立了大型荧幕，音响，让众人能够集聚一块，共同目睹这一场历史性的球赛。好好！！！

我也在现场，不是球场内，在West park跟着大家一起欢呼，鼓掌，见证了这一刻。觉得好骄傲啊！毕竟以后，我跟别人说我在英国的时候，应该会有多一点点的人知道我曾经落脚的地方在那里了。

我有拍照留证的，可惜，找不到我的cable 它到底去了那里。所以没办法上传。曾经在wolverhampton待过的朋友，你和我一样吗？都觉得与有荣焉吗？

在primark的最后一天

2009-05-02T05:52:00.002+08:00

把工作都辞了，今天是最后一天上班，有点感动，也有很惊人的不幸事情发生。

今天，有一个货仓管理员工在底层的仓库上吊，奄奄一息，是我的女经理发现他的。在他还没上吊前，他像平常一样的上班，没什么不对劲的，所以我可以想象得到我经理当下的心情，一定非常不好受，也很害怕吧！他是我的经理好强啊！他竟然被警察反复的问话后，还能够整理情绪，继续上班。把所有事情都做好。很佩服他！

我感动的事，竟然有人会送我卡片，跟我说再见。我的supervisor还送我蛋糕。很多人都特别的来和我道别，祝我一路顺风，好运。蛮感动的。离开前，经理得和我做一个离开面试，问了我很例行的问题，到最后，他还必须给我留下评语，给我看了一遍后，要我签名。最感动的是，我经理给我一个很好的评语。证明他很欣赏我，也很喜欢我。我的努力都没白费的。赚到一个良好印象，还有给我留下了联络方式，过后还可以约他去喝东西。很好很好的感觉。

觉得在primark工作都还不错，很快的，我从retail operative在sales floor就转上去cash office了。两个部门的工作都不错，员工对我很好，经理也很照顾，在还没有任何摩擦之前离开，高高兴兴地走时一件好事。毕竟另外一份工作，就是待得太久了，被人厌，走之前还弄得很不愉快。无奈，人生啊，就是如此。

面试过关了

2009-05-02T05:48:00.002+08:00

哈哈哈。。。好高兴啊！电话面试的第一关过了，现在是等星期二，去面试第二次。在曼城，希望能够顺利过关，我就有工作啦！！！！

保佑我啊！玉佩啊玉佩，要加油！

4 月 - 难忘的日子有。。。

2009-04-29T06:24:00.005+08:00

14 号，丹搬过来跟我住了。

18 号，断然离开酒吧的一天。因为经理的关系。哭得好伤心，觉得好冤枉。还生病了。

19 号，决定离开的一天，买飞机票和交离职信给酒吧的一天。

20 号，把离职信交给primark 的一天。

22 号，收到马来西亚公司的面试通知。两家公司，其中一间还是大公司呢！Baker tilly monteiro heng.

25 号，收到P& Co interview 的email.
　看到leona 的婚礼邀请！就在这一天。我成功地赶过去了。

28 号，和P&Co 进行phone interview。结果，负责的人还把我给忘了。我还得打电话去提醒他。phone interview 进行得不错。希望能够顺利过关。
丹今天离开了，回国去了。

那些在是怎样呢？

An uphill climb for cup of tea

2009-04-28T07:43:00.002+08:00

The most remote cafe in Britain is to open next month - despite being accessible only by boat and then a 17.7km (11 mile) trek up the coyntry's highest sea cliffs. The cafe in Cape Wrath Lighthouse will offer tea and cakes to any hardy visitors. ' It must have the vest views of any cafe. You regularly see whales and dolphins,' said John Ure, owner of the coffe shop in Sutherland, Scotland.

Metro, 27 April 2009

Looking forward to see that!

Leona & Andrew's wedding

2009-04-26T07:13:00.004+08:00

Here comes Mr. & Mrs. Bovett.

命运造化弄人

2009-04-26T06:52:00.002+08:00

因为酒吧工作事件，所以下定决心要回家去了，飞机票买了。工作也申请了，也肯定了面试的时间，也通知了全部亲朋好友，我要回家去了。

哪知道，竟然在星期五收到一封email，是曼城的一件会计公司给我发的，对我的履历表感兴趣，希望能够和我约时间做个电话面试。我回了，说好！

有一位香港的朋友在新年前和我说了，他要结婚了，会嫁来英国，我说如果有机会，我一定会到的。他对我说的是5 月份，结果在凌晨3 点钟的星期六(25/04/09)，我看到了他的email 是说他们的婚礼就在这一天，就是这个星期六(25/04/09)，email 是在早3 个星期就发了给我。因为有太多的email account，所以忽略了那一个。那么的巧，还会被我看见，赶得及去参加他的婚礼。

这是命运的安排吗？注定得如此吗? 被命运搞得团团转的。我的下一步是该怎样走呢！

回家咯！

2009-04-20T03:30:00.002+08:00

一直都犹豫不决的问题，在脑海里不停的盘旋的问题终于有了个答案，我会在5 月9日离开英国，回家去。

因为有一些人做了一些事情，我才会认真的看清楚在我身边的每一个人，深深的体会到一些人的假，无知，愚昧。竟然如此，就别跟他们一般见识，放宽胸襟，退一步海阔天空。

毕竟我也受够了那些不公平的对待，无耻言语相向。也好，不过就离开英国而已。没什么大不了的。

姐姐要结婚了

2009-04-11T02:15:00.003+08:00

我的姐姐说要结婚也说了有一段的时间。因为拖得有点久，渐渐“我姐姐要嫁了”的那种兴奋感觉也变淡了。所以这次我的姐夫soon to be 跟我说他要去马来西亚跟我姐姐结婚时，我也没有多大的感觉。直到我看到了文件上的证明，上头印有我姐姐的名字和我姐夫的名字，我才后知后觉的看到说，这次是真的了。

从姐夫那里回家后，我才认真思考，想到说我这个做妹妹的有一点过分，姐姐要结婚了，我竟然无动于衷。没想到要回家，没想到说要给他们祝福，没想过要送他们结婚礼物。想到这里，我觉得很难过。为什么我会变成这样了？？？真的好难过。。。加上朋友的事情，让我心情非常不好，难过得快要死了。

现在，我也没有能力为我姐做些什么，毕竟我远在英国，结婚是在马来西亚。也没有经济能力，只能自给自足。跟妈妈讨论后的结果是，等吧！等到我姐夫真的和我姐住在一起的时候，照计划来看，这还要最少一年半的时间，到了那时候，我再给他们补回迟来的结婚礼物吧。

姐姐，我能做得也只有如此。结婚礼物归结婚礼物，你欠我的还是得先还我啊！

姐姐，我都不知道你决定结婚的日子是那一天，也是我的疏忽。

我在这里祝你们：

新婚愉快
白头偕老
和和睦睦
活得比以前更好
要快点让我做阿姨，让妈妈做婆婆，让爸爸做外公，让弟弟做舅舅。 promised!!!

psw要一年的bank statement?

2009-04-11T02:10:00.003+08:00

有点被吓坏了。听朋友说，psw 的签证现在必须有一年份的bank statement 才能够申请，我听了之后，真得有点被吓傻了。不是吧！！！

所以赶快上网去求证，求证结果是：没有！依旧是3 个月的bank statement 就好了。因为如果真的改成一年份，我想我现在就应该开始着手收拾打包回家了。

还好不是。但是留下来也唯有等而已。。。

缘分

2009-04-09T09:20:00.002+08:00

你们相信缘分这玩意儿吗？

我只觉得我常常落得有缘无分的下场。

在同一天里，我们都去了同一家餐馆吃饭，吃着同样的菜。并没有约好，我们各自都和不同的朋友聚会，不同的时间，但是相同的地点，同一天。有那么巧吗? 也可以说是有缘无分吧!

有缘认识了，可是，并因为现实的环境因素而分隔两地，然后也就不了了之了。

我的这些种种都跟我说着，我和这些人都是有缘无分的。

好想好想快点找到我的有缘人。

别再给我开这些烂桃花了。。。很累人！！

7 days week

2009-03-31T07:37:00.004+08:00

Started to work 7 days a week again, not sure how long it gonna last, but it is good thing tho, since there's not much happening in my life. Gosh..!!! Been expecting something to happen, but how sad, none of them happen or yet to happen.

中毒的一天

2009-03-28T06:37:00.002+08:00

从2003 年开始，我日以继夜的用电脑打发我大部分的时间，上网聊天，看电影，下载，搜寻新闻八卦，和最重要的就是功课，都靠网际网络和电脑完成的。

星期三，是我人生当中的一大败笔。我的电脑竟然中毒了，就因为msn messenger。当时，我只是跟我的姐夫在网上聊天，可是我的聊天窗户内突然冒出一句 foto??? haha...http://msnimagines.org/xxx@hotmail.com

xxx 其实就是我的电邮邮址。我就以为我姐夫看了我的网页上的照片，觉得很搞笑，想问我照片的事情，就没多想，按下了那网址。说时迟那时快，我的电脑，网页视窗不停的冒出很多很多我看没打开的网页，后来连我的screen saver 叶换成了黑色的，中间闪烁着红黄色的"WARNING"。警告我说我的电脑中毒了。看到如此画面，我都快要疯了。

没别的办法，是好把电脑给format. 花了我两三个小时才弄好。还得打电话回家向姐姐求救。好累啊！

我生命中的第一次 - 中毒！

Sabotage

2009-03-22T04:09:00.006+08:00

Last week, there was once some tills weren't been spot checked when i was about to take the tills off because i couldn't find the spot check sheet and the sales total for the individual till. So, my assumptiion was the spot check for the tills were not done.

I was well pissed off due to the fact that how on earth can the supervisor and the manager leave the floor on my own before the money been collected. So i have to do the spot check for those tills which are not done.

Since it was a serious incident, i rang up my supervisor and report to her. The next day, the supervisor was on duty on those tills came to me questioning me which are the tills are not spot check, and he swore at me telling, he has done them all, and he is not stupid leaving them not done. His statement does make sense to me, because all the vouchers behind the tills were signed off by him. Most of the time, supervisor remember to spot check tills but not remembering to sign the vouchers.

If whatever he said was right, it will be me that is lying, which he was accusing me hardly. I felt angry why would i lie on things like that.

So, i start on my investigation to clear my doubt, found out that he is not in good specking terms with one of the floor manager, who was on duty on that night. The supervisor was accusing me lying at 1st, but because i insist, he said he might know where's went wrong. He was telling me, his work been sabotage, and he knows who is that!

I don't get it at all, why would someone steal the spot check sheet?

Finally, i found out, the most suspecious person who might have done it is the manager who doesn't like him. She took it away and hope that the supervisor will get done by that. She has the confidence that she will not be accused because the store manager likes her. whatever she done was putting me into a situation where i will be accused not doing my job well and also being a golden finger.

What a mess! this is the work place politics.

转变方向？

2009-03-19T06:23:00.003+08:00

上一次说的那个面试是一份行销的工作，所以就推了。竟然都没兴趣，为什么还要去面试呢!浪费时间。

我又去找我的人事部经理，麻烦他帮我询问总公司那里是否有会计空缺，如果有，我会很乐意的申情过去。可是他说，公司毕竟不是很大，所以总公司的工作机会并不多，反问我对trainee management有没有兴趣。

当下的我真得很挣扎，不知道该给于什么答复。过后，这工作的要约不停在我脑海中反复，不断地问自己，好不好？在同一个晚上，我也决定了，就去试试看吧！反真还不知道会不会得到这工作。如果得到这经理的工作，就留吧！暂时不回家。我也决定不管妈妈的意见，不管他同不同意，我也要留下。哪知，过后跟妈说，她竟然很赞同，说应该这样办。我好高兴啊！

但是呢，我自己也觉得这计划的转变怎么那么大呢？之前为了想要当酒店的经理，很努力的在酒吧工作，考取公司的文凭，酒牌执照考试。这是我自己要的。妈妈建议我说去考取会计执照，想说做会计师也应该不错，我也考到了。结果，现在却是去当retail chain 的部门经理，是我完全没想过的耶！有拓开自己未来事业的领域，很多很多。。。

兴奋退下过后

2009-03-16T04:23:00.002+08:00

听到可以去面试的当下我真的难耐心中的兴奋，想要告诉全世界。都说了过后，兴奋的程度就渐渐下降，然后恢复理智，可以认真地去思考。

想想和分析朋友们的意见，彬就提醒了我上一次经验，有一家新开的公司要请人，可是呢，公司连电脑设备都不齐全，负责人的办公桌都是空的，让我觉得这间公司是骗人的。

妈妈也说我，那有人那么糊涂，竟然没听清楚公司的名字就在那里兴奋。毕竟，我很肯定，上一次我是没有去申请的一份工作，那公司在网上拿到我的履历表的。也有从朋友口中知道说，他们的友人也有在birmingham china town 那里申请工作，面试过，是一些推销形式的工作。

毕竟，我现在知道的只有公司的地址，电话号码，就没别的了。因为不知道公司名字，也没办法从网上找寻，因为它是位置在一栋办公楼，同一栋楼里，有会计公司，广告，律师办公所，还有行销公司。所以，唯有等到明天再打电话去问咯。然后再决定是否要去面试。

其实我并没有失去理智，兴奋归兴奋，并没有到了无药可救的地步。也不会觉得有太大的失落感，因为我已经常常被现实的打击锻炼得很坚强。

但是我还会抱着一点点地希望，希望有一天我的希望能够如愿。幸运之神，别忘了眷顾我。。。谢谢你！

出乎预料

2009-03-14T10:34:00.002+08:00

今天有一点小小的惊喜。

连续两周，我都错过了同一通电话，想了又想，还是回拨，看看是谁找我吧。很意外的，是一家公司看到了我的履历表，觉得我不错，叫我去面试。我听了好高兴啊!

听到了公司的地点，面试的时间，帮我预约的人的名字，就是没听见公司的名字。他也有跟我说，这不是一间人力公司，他们是有兴趣请我进他们的公司工作。就这些。

我就要求他把一切的细节都写在电邮里发给我。可是呢！到现在，我都不清楚这是否是一件会计公司呢, 还是别行类型的公司！

冷静下来后，就觉得自己有点兴奋过度，毕竟一切都还太早了吧！就希望它是一间会计公司，然后请我！求菩萨，耶稣，天上神仙保佑我能如愿！

2009-03-11T05:50:00.003+08:00

Have a good laugh at this.

But in reality, this is some how true, but working extra hours doesn't always show that you are working hard. On the other hand, it can also reflect that you are working inefficiently, that's why you require more time than everyone else. Indirectly indicates that you are less capable than the rest of the member of staffs.

A fractured foot

2009-03-11T05:08:00.004+08:00

After 8 weeks, i finally found out what is wrong with my foot.

I've had my broken foot for 8 weeks, been to the doc on the 2nd week, then again 4 weeks later,only got the x-ray done 2 weeks ago, i know that i have fractured bone with my left foot, and need to go to the fracture clinic in the hospital tommorow.

The doctor were saying the consultant might suggest to me putting a cast on ...!!! After 8 weeks. haih...

Looked back, the doctor i've 1st seen was really shit. he was telling me i haven't got enough exercise with my foot, it is weak, that's y i strained it easily. When i was asking for a medical check up, and x-ray for my foot, he said, i am a young adult, if i think i am healthy, then i am, there's no medical benefit for a young adult like me having a medical check up done. He even said it is different in the UK and places like Hong Kong and China, because medical services were partly privatised, so most practioners in asia would suggest to have annual medical check ups to make money. And saying i don't really need 1 because i think i am a healthy young adult.

My friends were suggesting me to sue him for lack of professional due care. Think about the pain i have suffer, i should have sue him for compensation. But i don't want to, as it is too time consuming, and i am not getting any worse, so just leave it.

Now i know, i am never going back to that Doc in the future for any consultation.

And somehow, i have been told, the fracture happened on my foot are usual and common to be seen on soldiers. Once i heard that, i was thinking what is the relation in between, why is that whatever happen to me is related to military???? Then only the doc explained, saying it happens especially for those who have to march a lot. Then i understand, he was trying to tell me that i walked too much!

reason being ommitted from the database and publication

2009-03-09T04:11:00.001+08:00

MCPHILIMY, Scott to me

Thank you for your email

I can confirm that you name does not appear on our affiliate list as you requested that we did not publish this at the time of initial registration. Unfortunately I am no longer able to opt you into this.

Regards

Scott McPhillimy
ACCA Connect advisor
ACCA
2 Central Quay 89 Hydepark Street Glasgow G3 8BW United Kingdom

tel: +44 (0) 141 582 2000
fax: +44 (0) 141 582 2222
http://www.accaglobal.com

今天我失约了

2009-03-09T04:01:00.002+08:00

今天，我应该和朋友一起去吃饭和唱k的。很可惜我没去到，因为我没办法起床！

昨天在酒吧打工到4 点，回家吃饭休息后都已经是将近六点，还调好了闹钟，应该没问题吧！可惜，我的潜意识太强了，竟然把闹钟安掉后，回去睡觉，而我都没知觉。到了1点半突然惊醒才知道已经迟到了。赶紧梳洗后就拨电给朋友们，很可惜，他们玩得太高兴，每人察觉我打电话给他们。没办法，因为我不知道地方准确的位子，就一直没出发，到了3点都没人回电，就放弃了。结果就在家休息。

想想也好，可以省回一点点的钱，不是很多，但是也好！

昨天要去游泳也没去成因为游泳的会场有比赛在进行中，今天也时，所以就在家好好的待着咯！

Where is my name???

2009-03-07T21:00:00.004+08:00

Once i passed my ACCA exams, i was so happy once i think about the publicity i will get. At least my name will be published on the ACCA student magazines, but it is not in it.

2 weeks ago, i realised that there's a searchable database in ACCA site that i could look for any exam passed finalists and affiliate. I was trying to search my name, but it is just not on it. I was guessing, may be it is just somehow ommitted from there, it wil get updated soon again. I was being optimistic about it.

Till yesterday, The March issue of Student Magazine has been released, and i was trying to look for my name among thousands of them on it for all affiliate over the world, unfortunately my name is still not there.

I am now upset, why am i not on it. Even my friend try to look for me, and she couldn't see it too, and rang me to confirm how my name is spelled.

I should send ACCA a complain email, how could they missed me out????

stay or leave?

2009-03-05T08:23:00.003+08:00

Today, i've just got an email from my malaysia course director telling me about a job offer in a Malaysia International firm and he will help me to apply to it. And i did send him my covering letter and CV so that he could help me to apply to it.

I am thinking, since my course director gonna help me to forward my CV for the application, it is kinda high possibility for me getting a job offer. If once, i promise to go back, any opportunity comes later in the UK, i wil have no way of turning back.

Oh well...can't think too much now, the same old problem exist and repeat again and again all the time, no strenght already. Let it be! when time comes, i will then know what to do next. No point of thinking too much...

優子姓名學-個性分析

2009-02-28T08:26:00.002+08:00

在威雄的部落格看到的网址，也到此逛逛。。。它说我，徐玉佩：

。。。的內在想法。。。。。
*思想比較主觀且內心很有自己想法
*想法比較內歛，常常隱藏自己的想法
*喜歡凡事行動前事先規劃再執行
*不喜歡被了解太多，內心世界不容易被人察覺
*相當固執，即使錯了也不在乎

。。。的外在行為。。。。。
*外表溫柔內心倔強的人，內心嚴重的缺乏安全感
*佔有慾會顯得比較強烈，常常會不安
*事情會自己全部攬起來做，比較勞碌命
*有時太愛計較，讓自己很累
*個性比較保守，做事相對也比較安份

我觉得很对噢！

http://www.fatemaster.tw/name.php

我的脚肿了

2009-02-27T08:19:00.002+08:00

原来我的脚肿了也有6 个星期之久。

好夸张，好久的一段时间了。自己竟然忽略时间的过去，忽略自己的脚还在肿。因为对痛的感觉麻木了，所以没有好好的照顾自己的脚。想想说，随它吧！终会好的。要不是在上个周五看到肿起来的起凸到了很夸张的程度，我很可能还会忽略我自己的脚呢！

在星期三那天，去看了第2次医生，也去了医院照x-ray。还不知道结果，又要等下周和医生再约时间。

累啊！

16 Feb 2009

2009-02-18T04:50:00.002+08:00

A very memorable day of my own victory.

This is the day i gained my ACCA qualification, from a student member to Affiliate. Finally ending my study life for a while.

I am so ready to get there, approaching to the top of a career ladder.

不爽﹐生氣﹐抓狂﹐哭笑不得的分別

2009-02-17T10:33:00.000+08:00

有一天﹐

兒子問爸爸: 爸爸, 不爽﹐生氣﹐抓狂﹐哭笑不得的分別是甚麼意思﹖

爸爸﹕要解釋很難﹐不如讓我來示範。

首先﹐爸爸拿了一本電話簿﹐隨機選出一個人。然後打電話給那個人。順便把電話調到擴音器模式。

VICTIM﹕HELLO﹖

爸爸﹕HELLO﹐ 請問ABDULLAH BADAWI在家嗎﹖

VICTIM﹕你打錯電話啦﹗

爸﹕你不要騙我啦﹗

VICTIM﹕我騙你幹嘛﹗神經病﹗ (蓋了電話)

爸﹕哪﹐兒子﹐這個就是 "不爽"。現在來看甚麼是生氣。

(兒子點頭)

(過了5分鐘﹐爸爸再打一次電話給那個人)

VICTIM﹕HELLO﹖

爸﹕請問ABDULLAH BADAWI有在家嗎﹖

VICTIM﹕怎麼又是你﹖都跟你講了你打錯電話了﹗

爸﹕我沒打錯電話啊﹗

VICTIM﹕你這個神經病﹐你到底是誰﹖

爸﹕我是誰你還不懂﹖我是NAJIB啦﹗

VICTIM﹕%^&*$#@﹗你是NAJIB我還ANWAR咧﹗白痴﹗(大力蓋電話)

爸﹕哪﹐兒子。這個就是"生氣"。懂了嗎﹖

兒子﹕喔我懂了﹗

爸﹕現在來看下甚麼是抓狂﹗(又打電話給那個可憐的人)

那個人一拿起電話就咆哮了﹗

VICTIM﹕你這個吃飽沒事做的神經病﹗整天打電話來干擾我﹐要不是我的電話沒有CALLER ID我早就報警了你這個變態佬。。。。

爸﹕(刻意壓低聲音)ERM。。。。請問林先生在嗎。。。。﹖

VICTIM﹕啊﹗很對不起﹗剛剛有個變態一直打電話來。。。

爸﹕喔﹐沒關係﹐請問ABDULLAH BADAWI在家嗎﹖

VICTIM﹕ ##$W$#^^%$E$%^$&^%R%^$^&%^$^%$﹗﹗﹗﹗﹗

這一次﹐爸爸蓋上了電話。

爸﹕你現在知道分別了吧﹗

兒子﹕可是爸爸﹐你還沒有講解甚麼是哭笑不得﹖

爸﹕喔﹐那個要等到晚上12點啦﹗

(晚上12點﹐爸爸搖醒兒子﹐然後又打電話給那個人)

VICTIM﹕HELLO。。。。。﹖(睡到一半被吵醒)

爸﹕我是ABDULLAH BADAWI﹐有誰打電話找我啊﹖

VICTIM﹕。。。。。。。。。。。。

爸爸好厲害啊﹗

下雪

2009-02-10T10:01:00.002+08:00

又是下雪的日子。
这一个星期里，几乎每一天都下雪！
每一天，我都烦恼着同样的问题：

我该穿多少的衣服才够暖和呢？
我该穿什么鞋子才不会滑倒呢？
该撑伞？还是戴帽子就好？

天气预测还说整个2 月都会下雪呢！
无奈啊。。。！！！

businesses closure in the UK

2009-02-08T02:43:00.006+08:00

After the shut down of Woolworth, the highest profile high street retailer, more retail chains have come to the limelight of putting themselves into administration.

Woolworth has closed its 807 shops across the country, then followed by Adams, children wear chains, closing 111 stores, leaving 160 in operation. Then Zavvi, formerly Virgin media stores, close down several outlets leaving with 92 shops, which has a total of 125 stores originally.

In latest ACCA student magazine release, there are intense pressure on UK job market and economic. Several well-known companies in the UK, such as KPMG, Grant Thornton, Deloitte is seeking volunteers to go on four-days weeks or voluntary redundancies.

There's even discrepencies with the EU workers working in the UK. There's an italian oil refinery is Lics hasn't taken more locals to fill the positions. Ended, locals workers went on strikes with the wise words from Gordon Brown "British jobs for British citizens".

- - "We want fairness. We want the rights of our members to have the opportunity to be employed, not just on this job but on all jobs around the United Kingdom." - -

Whereas, great attention are putting on the east, where China, and Hong Kong are viewed as few bright spots amid the global economic gloom. Malaysia accountancy industry is prescripted better than before, as more Malaysian PLCs are switiching frm the traditional Big Four firms to mid-tier or class A audit practices affiliated with international firms because of the comparable services provided by the latter, reported by The Star.

So, to summaries the above facts, i would see myself back to malaysia earlier than expected.

Ghost Inc. South Kensington

2009-02-03T05:43:00.005+08:00

I saw the advert of Ghost Inc in the Hotline magazine, i was so much interested in it. It was actually a good cocktail bar to go in to sit for a drink. Here's some pics i taken in there!

London Street Art

2009-02-03T05:30:00.002+08:00

CNY london 2009

2009-02-03T04:48:00.003+08:00

Celebration of Chinese New Year took place in London several venue, including China Town, Leister Square, and Trafalgar Square starting 12.00 till 18.00.

new position, hectic weather condition

2009-02-03T04:25:00.002+08:00

Feb 2, 2009

Today is kinda special day to me, it my 1st day of my new position in primark. I am starting my cash office position today. I haven't been looking at figures for so long, about few months, today, i have a headache when i kept looking at them, trying to figure out the right way of doing things too!

It has been something i have done it before just that they do it differently. So, having to learn the primark way of doing things, feel that time flied really quickly today. I do feel better for having this job. It is more "office" job end of the day, although it is not closely related to the big picture of my profession. But it is a good starting point.

With this 1st day in the office, it also been a hectic rush at the end of the business day because of the very bad weather condition. The Met Office is expecting heavy snow at least 4 inches thick in the evening and more over the night. This has also lead to an early ceasation of public transportation service hence, being considerate, primark has to shut early so that all the staffs are able to catch the last bus to go home. We only found this out 30 mins before the closure, therefore, there were a bit of rush at the end.

When i get to the train station, i could see it myself how bad was the condition, as most trains been either cancelled or delayed for at least 1 hour. i was shocked, luckily i was managed to catch the delayed trained coming at 6.25pm, it was the 5pm train from london....!!!! if i missed that 1, i will have to wait looooo......ng time to get home..!!

i sprained my foot

2009-01-27T05:06:00.006+08:00

how unbelieveable comments i get from the doctor about my foot!

I had a swollen foot for weeks, on thursday just gone, i don't know what has gone extremely wrong with it, i just can't put my foot on the floor at all. It hurted so much. So i rang up the clinic immediately to arrange an appointment and i was lucky to get 1 on the day.

So i went to the doctor by taxi coz i can't actually walk. But after i heard the comments from the doctor, i was just gone mad.

Doc: Have you been to sport/exercise recently that you sprained it?

me: No. The only exercise i do is sit ups at home. And yes, i walked everyday at work.

Doc: Have you accidently felt over or anything drop on your foot?

Me: No. As far as i am aware of. (will i not know that if i did have something felt on my feet or i kicked something with my foot???)

Doc: Does it hurt there? (he was feeling the condition of my foot around the bruise)

Me: No, only where it got the bruise hurts.

Doc: How did you sprained it there? (apparently he doesn't know why and how i sprained it there too)

Me: ......... (if i do know, i don't have to come to you, isn't it?) haih...

Conclusion from the doc: Your foot is weak, so you have to do more exercise to make it stronger!

Me: (I am thinking - Really???? I walked everyday to and from my house to train station, walking around the shop floor in primark, standing on it all day, working as glass collector/serving at the bar when i work night in babylon, mean i am walking a lot as compare to any normal office person. And all i get from the doc is...

" You have to walk more, do more exercise, and you have to do this (he showed me some feet exercise) everyday morning and night at least ten times each session a day. "

Me: (come on, it's old people feet physio exercise, and you are asking me to do it??? I ain't that old!!!)

And yet, all i get is pain killer again from my prescription. argh..........!!!!

it sucks after listening to the foc, pay £3 for the taxi to get there, get no excuse to not go to work, and get no walking sticks to help me out of walking better and quicker. yet, have to rush home to get ready for work on time.

NOT IMPRESSED!!!!

失落的心情

2009-01-21T05:48:00.003+08:00

今天接到我姐的电话，说她一定得在这个星期以内回去马来西亚，因为她看错了她签证的截止日期，所以她现在逾期留待是不行的。不能不回去，然后再从新申请签证。

我知道后，很失落。有点失去依归的感觉。毕竟，我从来没有一个人在外头生活过。当初来英国的时候，是有姐姐的陪伴，虽然说，都是我在照顾我姐，但是她的存在让我觉得生活不孤单。虽然我们常常吵架，但是她让我知道，她是跟我活在同一个时间的国度里。我醒着的时间她也是，随时可以找得到的人。现在说要离开，我觉得很失落。也很担心。

之前还说她要搬回来跟我住，就算结婚了，也会跟我住在一起，我嘴巴上说是很烦，为什么不是跟姐夫住？可是，其实我很高兴，毕竟她是我姐，一家人就本来应该住在一起的。还想说，如果搬家，搬去birmingham, 也得找一个好一点的地方，可以方便她住下来。现在，这一切都得变了。虽然实际变化不大，但是心情上的改变让我很难接受。所以我哭了。在我朋友的慰问下哭了。我很舍不得，就算我知道她只是回家了。也不敢在她面前哭，因为我知道她已经很懊恼和烦，也担心她和男朋友的感情和婚约有变化。所以我必须忍住。

一个人的感觉真得很不好。朋友还嘲笑我说，你的离乡情却现在才发作，好慢哦，来的好迟。哭过了，发泄了，就好多了。

supervisor or HR personnel or cash office ?

2009-01-18T22:24:00.003+08:00

I was applying for the position of weekend supervisor within the company, i had my interview on friday just gone. It went alright, i was impressed with myself. haha...

Something to share, when i was in the interview, i thought i was only applying for the supervisor position but in actual, i was applying for either supervisor, a position in HR personnel or cash office.

Pauline was doing the interview with me, after she found out from me i have just finished my studies, she was telling me that there are positions going in HR and cash office also apart from the supervisor position. I was well suprise coz i didn't know that if i know i would have apply to all three. She was wondering will i be interested in those positions. Yes, of course i do.

So, in that interview, she asked me questions based on the 3 positions requirements and characteristic for the job. By looking into that, hence i am given a chance to the 3 post. She gonna decide it after all the interviews been carried out, to find out whether is there anyone better than me for any of those position.

Personally, i would like to work for HR, more than the cash office and supervisor positions. As it is a 40 hours full time position, most importantly, it is an operative & administrative work experience that i will get. Finger crossed, hopefully i will get this 1.

my online bonus saver account interest rate

2009-01-16T08:27:00.002+08:00

I really wanna cry now after looking at the message the bank sent me:

"The Bank of England have reduced the Base Rate by 0.50% to 1.50%. Following this we have changed the interest you earn on your Online Bonus Saver from 2.25% AER to 1.75% AER (1.75% gross variable, including 1.00% AER bonus interest) in any calendar month you don't make a withdrawal. Even if you do make a withdrawal, you'll still be earning standard interest of 0.75% AER, 0.75% gross variable."

When i 1st have this account, it's interest rate was 5%, now only have 1.75%. UK economy really no good ah....my money doesn't worth that much now, cannot earn interest too... !!! huhu.... :'(

my lovely brother in law

2009-01-16T07:51:00.005+08:00

It was the 1st time my lovely brother in law soon to be msg me yesterday.

I was in extreme shock to get his text, because he texted me at about 3am, asking me am i alright?? at this time???

So i thought it must be something wrong, has he argued with my sister, is he seeking my help that's y he was looking for me at this time? many random questions flying in my mind. So i quickly phoned my sister, without caring the time, just want to find out even though she is asleep which i know for sure. I woke her up, and all it was, my brother in law was too boring at work, because he was working late night. i was like....haih yo....bit of release also feel funny...has my lovely sister told him that his sister in law, me, don't sleep early, so he can look for me to spare his time???? i don't mind, honestly. In condition that i do know there's nothing wrong, because i never had this before, i would automatically anticipate that there's something going on wrong, and scare me...!

The conversation we had via msg'in were funny!

He was telling me that the prince visit his base and he ask the prince for id to enter!!!
I was like uh....???? Question mark flying again...!!

which prince is he talking about?>
why is he visiting his base?
if he's the prince, why did he ask him for id?

Then, the answers were:

Prince william
coming for flying lessons, was published in the news
he couldn't recognise him as the prince...!!! er...... not good!!!!

hahaha....really funny....how could he not recognise the prince, he must have know his visits, isn't it? otherwise, he should be able to recognise him anyway...!! somehow, he just didn't...and asked him for id...i wish to know the prince reaction when he was approach by my brother in law...it must be funny...!!! wahahaha.....!!!!

Primark, my emploer is in allegation of breaking the labour laws

2009-01-15T07:37:00.002+08:00

I don't possess a television in the Uk, so i never watch news and personally i seldom take the approach to any news site to read the latest update of what's going on.

Yesterday when i was at work, all staffs were been called to the room for briefing, i was wondering what was the briefing about since we had one from the supervisors about 10 mins ago, and this one was called by the manager.

Then, only i know, it was about the company, Primark is intimidated of being sue due to getting supplies of garments from unethical supplier, TNS knitwear in Manchester. I was aired in BBC news. From the footage provided by BBC, it is clearly that the TNS is breaking lots of laws, immigration, labour, H&S etc. I always thought that this would only happen in developing countries or undeveloped countries as there's not a complimentary set of governing laws available as compared to country like the UK. Shocking to know this.

I was brief about how to answer and reply to questions if been asked by any random person who came into the shop. There's a well suggested answer given by the manager: Mate, I don't know about this, if you would like to know more, i can get my manager to brief you about this matter.

I think that's a brilliant answer from a retail operative point of view, as I don't personally pay much attention and concerns to it. But i am currently applying for the position of weekend supervisor within the company. So, there's a need for me to equipped with such knowledge and able to answer correctly to the staffs as well as the "random persons".

I am now wondering, is my career prospect guaranteed by working with the company? Unless the company is clear from the allegation.

As from a prospect of an accountant, it would be much of the hassles to make such disclosure in the annual report as there's no direct relation to the trading business however, how would the company accountants treat this disclosure and how this breaking news affect the auditors who did the audit for the company also the one for TNS.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/7824291.stm

新年节目

2009-01-14T06:13:00.002+08:00

原本的我还蛮期待这一次的伦敦之旅。来了英国3 年，第一次在伦敦过新年。但是，我却很自信的以为农历新年的一切表演的装潢都会在初一上演，那知，定了假期，买了火车派票，才发觉不是的。 London council 把一切的演出延迟至初七，星期天才有。我知道后都快晕了。想到说我又错过了。但是，认真地考虑后，我可以再请多两天的假，待在伦敦9天之久，就为了看，感受一下在伦敦过新年的那气氛。不然。。。我会后悔的。。。！！！

厌倦了

2009-01-13T06:33:00.002+08:00

我厌倦了这种没有未来的生活，讨厌这种无助的生活。也生气自己那么的犹豫不决。
我需要一个转机。

Planning to go Ireland

2009-01-10T11:53:00.002+08:00

I have been planning to go to work in Ireland since I saw the article in ACCA magazine stated that Ireland is currently in shortage of Accountants. ACCA members who get qualified in the Ireland would automatically granted with a green card, which i would assume it would be easy for me to get a job and apply for work permit there. Therefore I've been really busy looking for information, tryingt to find out the possibility of me being to work there.

Info that I found:

It only takes an hour to fly to Dublin Airport from Birmingham International Airport, could cost only £34.50 for one way flight ticket as in Dec.
Malaysian can enter Ireland up to six months as visitor without having to have a visa.
Employer or employee can apply for the work permit.
The work permit fee covering from 6 months to 2 years is EURO 1000.
For those employee who apply work permit should earn at least EURO 30,000 per annum. There are only certain occupations having the salary below EURO 30,000 are allow to apply for work permit.
The work permit visa application only have 10 pages to fill unlike UK PSW visa, havign 40-50 pages.
The position for work permit application has to undergone a market test for a month, testify there's no one could fill the position.
The work permit application would take up to 2-3 months to process.
Salary range from gradaute accountant is EURO 20,000 to 30,000.

That's what i've got so far.

The most shocking piece of info i found is the cost of the application fee. It means £1000 now, as currently UK sterling pound is relatively weak against EURO. Is nearly £1 to EURO 1. My god...!!! If include the deposit and rental for accomdation and migration cost i would need at least £2000 then only i can make this move.

Hate people being racist and agreesive

2008-12-31T11:21:00.002+08:00

What the f**k...these 2 days at work, people i met were so rude, it's unbelievable.

On Sunday, Babylon, there's a girl i refused to serve her drinks because i think that she had too much, she was fine with my decision, but her friend was annoyed by my decision, and trying to make it a big deal...ended arguing with the management, door staff and my friend at work. Somehow she was pissed off because she knows that she can't stand on her feet with the arguement... she starts to abuse us, and pin-pointing the skin colour of my friend...because she is white! my friend is brown, and i am yellow! .... the worse was, she chucked a drink over us. We were all covered in vodka and redbull...cheers to her...

The funniest was she rang the police trying to complaint about us. Somehow, she admitted she thrown a drink at us, the policewoman was shock...asking her what more she wants from the police! Why were the police were called when she throw a drink at somebody else...?

On monday, work at primark, a guy were talking to me rudely, questionning me about the price of the product, and telling me it was a ripped off for the company charging such a high price for product when that jumper he was asking for price is sold for £4.89...

really...what more you can asked for ....when a jumper is only sold for £4.89...too expensive...unbelievable...i was like...was that my decision for the company to sell it at that price? what is that to do with me...why are you talking to me like that...! then my manager heard him...and stand up for me....having a go at him for being so rude to me...i just walked away... i thought he left after that...but he didn't...when he was about to leave....he shouted at me...again...fiercely...really....what's wrong with all these people...

Last week before X'mas there was another girl at primark accusing me being rude, not helpful and not speaking english...for god sick...she is black, she doesn't speak good english too....and i do speak english...what more you want to ask for....when u r being so impatient to wait for the help...! God....!

New Contract at Primark

2008-12-29T03:59:00.002+08:00

it is almost towards the end of the X'mas contract of me with primark as a temp employee, was desperately wishing that they keep me as permanent staff so that i can a fixed hours job until i find a proper accountancy job. Solely reliance on babylon bar job isn't secure and good enough to sustain my living.

Thanks God, on the 24th, Personnel has finally come out with the decision that they will keep me for full time ,permanently, therefore extended the contract of employment with me, with working hours from 2.30pm till 7.30pm daily weekdays, which is such a good news to me.

This also means that i am going to keep my live of working 7 days a week until i find my dream job. Work, work, work ....

Christmas Eve

2008-12-25T04:35:00.002+08:00

Today, Christmas Eve, weather is alright.

Mood wise, nothing special.

Physically, mentally tired!

No work tonight, and the 2 days following...so exciting...!!!

my life to date_Dec 2008

2008-12-20T09:55:00.002+08:00

What is my life like nowadays?

Once i wake up, i go to work, in primark, when i finish worked, come home wait for dinner to be served. After dinner, check mails, facebook, job searching, looking for information like visa application, immigration regulation, news that could impact my stay in the UK, till latest 3.30am, go to sleep"

Wake up the next day at approx. 1pm, then get ready to work again. This repeated every weekday, saturday is the only day i can sleep till naturally wake up as if i have no date, no engagement, then have some lesire time of myself, then get ready to work from 9. Sunday, wake up latest by 3 to get ready for dance practice at work. then come home, cook then eat, after, go to work. That's a week, and everything start again.

How can I change my life? I really need a proper job! i've been trying so hard, anyone could please give me some advices, where have i go wrong, what have i done wrong, why is my application is like a stone throwing into the sea with no feedback! I am not fuss how bing is the company, whether they pay me well or not, I just want a more meaningful and organised life, with relevant work experience putting into CV. That's not too much i am asking for right?!

I am looking into information of working in Ireland as advertised in ACCA magazines, stated that Student who graduate in ACCA and gained experience within Ireland will automatically granted with a green card once they become a member. It also says that Ireland is in shortage of accountants, which indicates to me that there's a potential of getting a job in accountancy in ireland is easier than in the UK. I hope things work out for me then i will go ireland as well. I don't really care I am in the UK or Ireland as long as i get some work experience before I go back to Malaysia.

I am living under time pressure, I feel that 24 hours a day is not enough for me, who can give me 48 hours a day instead to make the flow my life, the things needed to be done more smoothly and in a more organised manner as i don't even have time for drama or movie.

Review at work

2008-12-16T10:04:00.002+08:00

There's a review of performance at work today when i am late, having my name tag left at home, which is not good at all.

As in the reveiw questions, it includes dress code of uniforms, on time, absents and other things. Whereas, i've fail for 3 i've mentioned above.

1st, i was late to work today although it is overtime shift, not my scheduled shift, but still i was late, coz i didn't realise that winter train time starts today and somehow the train was suppose to be able to send me to work on time was delayed by approx 10 mins. So, consequently i was late for definite.

For my name tag, because i changed my jumper, and i forgot to remove from that and put on the one i wear today! So, uniform fail too.

Absents, i was not working on the day before my exams for 2 weeks. So constitute towards a lower percentage of attandance! Oh well....

There's nothing much i can do and tell since whatever mentioned was already happened although the manager did say it's alright! No worries, but still... if they didn't keep me, it means i am going to be working less hours, and gonna rely solely on babylon shifts again until i am able to found another job!

后知后觉的我

2008-12-16T09:55:00.002+08:00

为什么每次家里的人开暖气，我的房间都是最热的？

在这个房间住了3年，现在才发觉我房间有4面墙，有3面是有radiators 的。一个是自己房间的，一个是阿彬房间的，一个是走廊的。就算我关了我房间的radiator, 还有两面墙的另一头的radiators 在发热。

我在猜，会不会连最后一面墙也有radiotor 在另一头，那就是隔壁家的房间的radiator...！！！

Ah ne's showing off expression

2008-12-14T03:34:00.003+08:00

Ah ne is too boring ....

trying to show off his new diary book purchased from startbucks..>!!

考完试了

2008-12-11T09:05:00.002+08:00

考完试了，有什么是可以做吗？

除了上班，就是找工。也应该没舍事可干。

这次考试，觉得答得不错，应该都没问题。

巧遇，真的好巧!

2008-12-11T08:43:00.003+08:00

在Primark那里工作，有个朋友，她叫颉儿，回中国去了！

在她还没离开时，其他朋友和同事有替她办个聚会，也有约我，很可惜，我没能参加，因为太累了，起不了床。心里也觉得可惜，没机会跟她说一路顺风。

哪知，在我要去考试的当天，竟然被我在火车站遇到她！我好吃惊，我竟然还有机会和他说再见！当我看到她时，真的不敢相信是真的。直到我向前去跟她说话，去抱抱她，才肯定。觉得真的好巧，我也很好运。她就连忙拉着我说拍照，因为我们见面时都是工作时，没有和照过。

希望她回国后一切顺利。大家保持联络。